People Change

I've realized that one of the hardest things about growing up is accepting the fact that people change. I think it's hard because sometimes that person changes so much that this can affect what you have with that person, that friendship or romantic relationship.

I've had my fare share of loosing friends because we grew up. Along with that growing up we change who we are, our beliefs change, our morals change… pretty much that person we once were changed. I'm not saying we change completely, but I do think that we change enough for us to not connect the same way with the people we once used to. To me this sucks, because those friends that I grew apart from, they were the ones I was closest too, the types of friends that I never wanted to loose because I loved them so much and I loved who they were.

I once had a friend that I actually have no clue where we grew apart. It was so quick,so sudden and I miss her dearly. She is one of the coolest people that I know and we became so close in such a short amount of time. It feels like we were friends since we were little when we actually had just been friends for a summer. When I remember all those crazy things we did that summer, when I remember those times we spent together, I can't help myself but get sad. I'm sad because she is no longer a part of my life and I wish she was. I know that part of the reason why we went our separate ways was because she changed (maybe I changed too), she was still her old self but with new qualities and I guess it was time to find other friends who would fit that new personality. 

I now see myself facing this possibility of loosing another friend because she too is changing and I'm terrified. I just think about the fact of loosing her, not having her and her personality around and it brings tears to my eyes. I want to stop her from changing, I want to protect her and guide her… and not let her get too much out of control because I don't want to loose her,I don't want her to change to the point where our personalities are too different to be friends… but there's so much I can do.

As I grow up, not only have I learned that loosing the ones you love is part of life, but I've also learned to accept it. I know how hard it is to accept it, and I know how much harder it is to deal with those feelings of not wanting to let go… but I've come around to accept that people change, you grow apart and all that there is left is those fond memories of the times you shared.