Everything Happens for a Reason

Its something you might read a lot if you continue reading my blog. I am such a strong believer of this phrase and I think every day I believe in it more. Sometimes I think I tell my self this sentence just to make myself feel better, who wouldn't? Think about it, if something you want to happen doesn't happen,you can just tell yourself "Well, everything happens for a reason" it's like putting the blame on someone or something else, in a good way.

Another phrase that relates to this one, and I think that it can also be relieving is "God sometimes says 'No' or 'Wait' or 'I've got something better." How comforting is that? I don't know about you but it makes me feel better, specially the one that says "I have something better" and I repeat this to myself when I find myself in a situation where something I wanted or what I planned to happen didn't and I specially tell myself this when something that I did not plan at all happening, happens.

After telling myself this phrase constantly, partly to make myself feel better, the search for that reason starts. Just like any human being, I ask myself "why?, what is that reason?". From my experience, sometimes we don't find that reason for a while, sometimes we know it right away, and other times we realize we knew all along why but we didn't want to accept it. One thing I can tell you is, how good and grateful you feel when you find that reason, well at least that's how I feel. 

Life is like a puzzle, sometimes the pieces come together without a hitch and other times we are stuck and can't find the right piece. This is somewhat how I felt when I found out I was moving to Texas and it got worse when I found out I wasn't going to be enrolling in University this fall as I had planned to.

You see, before moving my life was coming together, I had everything I had wanted and I felt like everything was coming together "the puzzle pieces were falling into the right places". I had just finished CEGEP (I could try to explain what this is but I don't think you would understand either way, so if your really curious you can google, maybe wikipedia will be better help than me) and I was admitted to University in a program that I was very excited about. I had finally moved up levels in my ballet school, after 2 years of trying I had moved to the last level "Advanced". (This was such an accomplishment for me you have no idea, I worked so hard to reach this level!) I had a wonderful family, amazing friends, I was legal and could go party in the beautiful city of Montreal, I lived in a wonderful city….alas I was pretty happy about my life and excited for what was to come.

That is until my parents dropped the bomb that we were moving. I really though I would stay, I really did, but to make a long story short, in the end after a few angry discussions between my mom and I and feeling somewhat guilty about leaving my family, I decided to try it out for a year to see what Texas (yes Texas) was like. So now I feel like I'm stuck, trying to figure out what the next piece to this puzzle is, it's clearly not the piece that I had in my hand...now I need to look for a new piece.

Just like you probably already guessed, I kept telling myself  "everything happens for a reason, everything happens for a reason" all the way here, and I think I might have found it….

Well not the reason as to why I moved here and why at this exact moment…. but I think I know why I wasn't able to apply to University in the States (so I could start this fall), just as I was supposed to if I would've stayed back home.

If I would have been able to apply in time, I probably now would have been in University and not taken a chance at something I had been thinking of doing for a while, but didn't think it was possible to do if I was starting University this fall. But since I moved, and it was making me be a little bit behind, I figured "might as well take a few months off school" and so I decided to be an au pair in France.

An au pair is a young girl (or boy) who as part of a cultural exchange, moves in with a family from a different country for a certain time (could be for a year or a few months) to learn/practice a new language, learn more about the culture etc. You live with the family and they provide you with a small stipend in exchange for looking after their kids. 

I decided I wanted to do this because it was a great way to experience a new culture, learn about a new country, practice french and travel. One of my best friends did it and she said she it was the best time of her life. I figured, what the heck? Might as well try and if it doesn't happen well then it wasn't meant to happen.

Now that I look back, I realized that if I would've enrolled right away into University then I probably wouldn't had sent my application to become an au pair, and probably would've wonder for the rest of my life "what if I had gone?". 

I found a family and we're going through all the paperwork process which is unfortunately taking a while, but if everything goes according to plan I should be leaving shortly after Christmas!

I am so excited and cannot wait to experience the french culture and to be in PARIS. Who knows, maybe I'll find a new reason as to why all this has happened to me? Maybe destiny decided to make me move to Texas so I would decide to go to Paris for a semester and then stay there for school?? I'm probably getting ahead of myself, but you never know!

Don't worry, I'll keep you posted about my parisian adventures ;)

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